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i should be grateful to even be getting a[nother] job, but i am not. all i feel is frustration and dread at working two part-time jobs in retail on my feet for 30 hours a week. and i know being paid anything is better than nothing, but i can’t help but feel disappointed at the $8.25 and hour i’ll be making as a courtesy clerk. i owe $26,000 worth of student loans and god fucking damnit all i want to do is pay it back so i don’t feel trapped by it.
FUCK YOU DEBT.
and then i think i sound like some entitled prick. wahh i can’t get a full-time job right out of a top-name college wahh. listen to me whine. i am just so angry at everything!!!!
ANGER ANGER ANGER
and then i get really fucking jealous and resentful of other people whose parents can afford to help them out financially, while my mom and grandparents cannot. i know i shouldn’t, but i just do and i just wish i didn’t have to deal with this fucking money stress bullshit.
